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when my mind wanders...

Jan. 16th, 2007 | 09:15 pm
I'm Feeling: mellowmellow
I Hear: Jack's Mannequin

As I meander down the melancholy road,
The sky stretches before me like a misty mezzanine.
I minimize my steps
So as to take in the miles
Of milky sky.

In the midst of a muddy meadow
That meets the horizon
And merges with the miniature moon,
My mind mimics the mellow music
To the rhythm manifested by the metronome of time.

And though the midday heat is not merciful,
I pause for a minute
To gaze at mighty mountains
That make the clouds
Seem merely a misty mirage.

I linger a moment in my mission
And cease the mumble of my mind
For the morning dove to mention a melody.
I do not merit
Such a message of magnificence.

[this message brought to you by the letter M?]

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why do i even bother...

Jan. 9th, 2007 | 11:24 pm

...livejournal has long ago been pronounced officially dead. but yet, here i am feeling the strange urge to write something. in this journal. something. something of substance.

for some reason completely unbeknown to myself i was looking through my past entries today and everything seems so....shallow. lighthearted. casual.

...but that's me, right? at least...that's the impression everyone seems to get...i'm just a happy, relaxed, always chipper sort of person, right? but it's far from the truth. i mean, yes, i am about as relaxed as they come and a fairly stable person as far as emotions go...it takes quite a giant heave to rock my boat...but sometimes i feel like i don't come across as having any depth. i don't know. maybe i'm wrong. all i know is that so many thoughts...so many ideas lay imbedded within me that i do not dare allow to escape...but sometimes i wish i would...

that just gets me thinking further...if i possess this...dimension...that i conceal from most of the world...what sort of depth lay behind others? what sort of secret intellectual qualities lie hidden from my view? this only makes me more determined never to judge people...even based on what i personally observe of them...for i cannot fathom what lies deep within them...i cannot fathom their personal struggles and weaknesses...just as they cannot fathom mine. even someone who in every way seems to be intellectually dull....mentally dry....who can imagine the thoughts they ponder late at night? who can imagine their true capacity....for even those who have been labled mentally delayed have taught something to humanity. even those who have been categorically catagorized as slow or stupid can sometimes see things in a different light, can sometimes open up a whole new world to us.

intelligence. who are we to decide what it is? we have no idea what it is. everyone exists exactly as they are for a reason. everyone has something they can contribute to humanity. therefore, no person is not worth my time. no person does not deserve my love and respect. even if they do me wrong...even if they get under my skin and on my nerves...even if they seem to be filled to the brim with evil...they deserve my love. they deserve forgiveness. they deserve a chance to be heard. they deserve a chance to be understood.

...for they are just as undeserving as i....

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Dec. 13th, 2006 | 11:56 pm
I'm Feeling: nervousoooooo

is anyone here??

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Don't Even Bother Reading This

Sep. 22nd, 2006 | 12:07 am
I'm Feeling: highin an opium-induced reverie
I Hear: the killerssssss-they're killer

let's play a game.....you ready?.......ok........it's called "let's see how long melanie can go without posting a livejournal entry".......ok.......BEGIN............

dang it, i just lost.

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EAST SI-IDE....of the USofA

Jul. 12th, 2006 | 09:05 pm

holla from the great state of pennsylvania. wait, actually, it's not a state. it is, in fact, a commonwealth. just like the commonwealth of massachusetts, which i just left.

but anyway, holla.

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no subj.-get over it

Jun. 28th, 2006 | 07:59 pm
I'm Feeling: enthralledenthralled

i love summer.
i love plaid shorts.
i love camp.
i love hot fudge sundaes.
i love burning rubber in my minivan.
i love guster.
i love dressing up in McDonald's costumes and going to two different McDonald's.
i love doing a conga line in a clown suit.
i love my friends more than my air.
i love thunderstorms.
i love lying in the middle of the road and looking up at the stars.
i love driving around allouez and doing illegal things......
i love going in the adult section of family video? (actually NO it was DISGUSTING but i did love my friends' reactions...)
i love asking austin's grocery store to order us some grapples.
i love wearing blaze orange hunting hats around allouez.
i love watching scary movies.
i love seeing AP History go up in FLAMES.
i love swinging at langlade.
i love driving in playgrounds....(don't ask..)
i love road trips with my family (except for the fact that they take me away from my friends).
i love summer.

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i ran out of H's

Jun. 9th, 2006 | 01:21 pm
I'm Feeling: bouncyhopelessly, hoppingly happy
I Hear: hellogoodbye



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Pointless as Usual

May. 22nd, 2006 | 09:17 pm
I'm Feeling: blankhey this sun has no face
I Hear: Death Cab for Cutie

the mouse on this computer changes colors and makes me go oooo.

i am eating out of a giant, economy-sized bag of cheerios at this very moment.

my nose is intensely sunburned and i want everyone to stop calling me rudolph....because, contrary to popular belief, i do have feelings...and that hurts....right here *points to nose*.....*bursts into uncontrollable sobs*

this school year needs to end so i can get out and burn the rest of my face...i need an even burn for goodness sake.....

i am fairly certain, as in completely certain, that i wore my underwear inside out today.

that's all i've got.

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completely spontaneous random writing that i had no where else to put

May. 9th, 2006 | 09:36 pm
I'm Feeling: indifferentnot emo, i swear. pensive.
I Hear: guster

tonight i went for a drive. just me, the black pavement before me, and the gentle hum of the motor beneath me. it was raining. the drops fell in rhythmic sheets that lightly tapped against the windshield, the road, the damp lawns of suburban allouez. guster played me a soft melody translated through the electric eyes of the compact disc player at my side. the wheels rolled on below me, carrying me along the wet and glistening path ahead. thoughts blurred. emotions stirred. the steady purr of the engine so soothing. tonight i went for a drive.

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May. 7th, 2006 | 08:41 pm
I'm Feeling: highridin' that prom high
I Hear: plain white t's




prom was incredibly amazing.

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